It's been a bit since I posted, and the time since then has been a roller-coaster where I hit rock bottom for a few days, and then bounced back up and am doing okay at this moment.
The unhappiness just hits out of the blue sometimes. I do not even think it is the breakup itself sometimes, but rather the isolation that accompanies it. Some days, you just mist that person so much, and when the rest of your life crumbles around you, those are the moments where you truly miss the person that is always there for you.
The happiness also hits out of the blue sometimes. Although I never really thought I would get there, I find myself realizing that I haven't thought about it for a bit. There are moments where I actually catch myself noticing other women and not comparing them with the ex. There are times where I feel better off.
When I am happy, I give myself a pat on the back for doing okay. When I am sad, I remind myself that it is going to be okay and that I am tough. But I think the hardest part about going back and forth through these emotional states is not berating myself for not feeling a certain way - I mean, the title of this blog says it all - getting over a breakup is hard. If you think otherwise, or try to act like some kind of superhero without any weaknesses, then you just set yourself up for feelings of weakness and failure. After all, even superheroes tend to have a weakness (an ex is the equivalent of kryptonite if you need a little help understanding why you are not invincible or recovering fast enough).
So, I just keep on keeping on. I try to make it each day, one day at a time, and I hope that the next day will be a little better. I try to stay focused on the things that I need to do now in order to make my tomorrow better, so that I don't end up regretting my future because of the past. It isn't always the easiest, but I know in the end I will be stronger for having gone through this.
One day at a time...
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